so i decided it's time for a change.
hearing that my mother and her friend have jumped on the blog bandwagon, i felt like i needed to resurrect mine. and now that i have my glorious macbook pro, that shouldn't be such a task.
other than being freed from the stigma of a private-school high school student, not much has happened.
but you know, graduation is a pretty big deal. it means that i've completed a bracket on the timeline of my life; i've made a change. With these first few weeks of summer i've been able to make a few revelations:
1) high school isn't all that it's cracked up to be.
yes, i know that sounds horribly pessimistic, but it's really true. I had come back from the lengthy graduation ceremony and kicked off my shoes and took a deep inhale and thought, when you say you're going into high school, adults always tell you "oh, high school is the best four years of your life!" and so maybe i was set up with some insane expectations. But nonetheless, i found myself wondering what was supposed to have happened to me to make those years so monumental. Save being relatively responsibility-free, I wasn't sure i knew what all those adults were reminiscing about. I never had that awesome boyfriend or went to that awesome party or took a kajillion pictures of myself with the same five friends. I don't remember the night the football team came back and won it all after being down at the half (possibly because our football team wasn't so hot) or that one time _____ surprised me with a dozen roses asking me to prom. Nope. Missed that one. But then someone told me, "The people who say high school was the best years of their life only say that because they're losers now." Their prom queen crown makes their real life look bland. I really did't care that i was voted "Truly Trendy." It didn't change my life. So maybe i'll be the one who says, "College was the best four years of my life!" instead. which brings me to lightning bolt number
2) college is going to rock.
i'm going to be in the place i love doing what i love. i have no complaints. I'm not going to wake up one morning four years later wondering why i went to WACO, TEXAS for college experience and didn't have the guts to really get out into the world and make something of myself (no hate comments, please). I just feel like i am really going to have, for the first time, the chance to really get out there and do what i really want to do with my life. I dont know how everything's going to work out and all, but it's still exciting just to think about it. I'm moving to Chicago to start a whole new life for myself. No more worrying about who i'm going to sit with at lunch. It doesn't matter anymore. I'm in complete control of who i surround myself with. I don't have to feel like a complete loser because i opted out of going/didn't get invited to ______'s swinging kegger.
The only thing i have to worry about soon is if starbucks is going to make me completely broke and when my well-dressed, bearded, cultured potential boyfriend is going to give me a call.
or daniel vosovic, when he turns straight.
ON TO CHI-TOWN!
mp3: Homecoming - Kanye West feat. Chris Martin
